Sunday, January 7, 2007
SAVE ENDANGERED ZIM
I haven't been being me for a tad too long. I seriously miss having endless conversations with someone and have regular intervals of silence in between but not get embarrassed about it. I can remember talking to Lyn on the phone for hours often ending up with scoldings from my parents and them thinking she's my girlfriend or something (haha). I miss being with someone and feeling so comfortable that words need not be said, just being in each other's presence is enough to set of fireworks. I miss everything about me that makes me the happy bugger that I am. I dunno what's been up with me. Maybe its because of the many things affecting me right now. Studies, friends, family, money. But hey, that's life; perfect from its own imperfections. I want to be able to feel blissful happiness again. Always talking, making jokes, burst out in spontaneous laughter; I want to be where I can care less about my problems and have the abililty to squeeze out every bit of happy juice I can get from any situation.
School's starting tomorrow. I despise the trips to school where I will often come to a lets-skip-some-classes-today decision. I hate going to class. Everything's so mundane. I miss my old classmates. My new classmates, they're trapped in the own chinese world. Yes I do not have Malay nor Indian or whatever other races there might be in existence in Singapore classmates. But race isn't a factor when making friends right? Like I said, they're in their own chinese world. I hardly hear English coming from their mouths. All I hear are ching-chong-ching-chong-HAHAHA. I'll be like what are they laughing about? Although I usually sit in the middle of the class, I feel like I'm at the shadowy back with gum under the table and spiderwebs hung abandoned. Its not a very condusive environment for effective learning. That's why I prefer hanging out at my rockgym. But the rockgym too lately have been feeling empty. All my closest friends have gone either from being kicked out of school or they withdrew from their course. Speaking of being kicked out, I'm terrified that I might be next. Someone help me get on track with my studies again please? You have to be really good because I'm as stubborn as nicotine addiction to my lungs. And my outside friends? haha they're always "outside" my reach. get it? hoho.
maybe what Wonderboy needs is a Wondergirl
and maybe a Superteacher
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Sunday, January 07, 2007
