lets goyang hardcore!

2007-01-27T23:50:00.000+08:00

you can find me at http://omfgitszim.livejournal.com/ now.

2007-01-25T23:45:00.000+08:00

Because Lyn's tag irritated me so much...

Yes.. credits to Lyn for her kickass videos. You can see them at her blog. But the Muffins video I found myself OK! pffft. And yes, you do not want to be like me coz you CANNOT be me. You can only DREAM of it. You guys can be like Lyn. She's so easily imitatable. HAH

And finally, yes.. I love you too, buggerette.

Awww.. my friends are so sweet.. They actually want me to stay back a few more semesters so they can see me more often.. YOUR HEAD AH! hahahaha

Slacked at Woodlands with Ashri, Noni, Yati, Faizal and Hannah. Fucking funny people. Nenekku so promiscuous.. HAHAHA

ok I have a test to study for tomorrow.

2007-01-25T00:13:00.000+08:00

ok I've made a decision.
This blogspot will not be in use anymore.
haha but blogging is so fun, I'm not stopping.
I'll just do it elsewhere.

But don't worry or insult me (i don't know why you would want to do that but...)
I'll tell you guys where I've shifted to once it is done.

I just can't bear to delete this blog.
I re-read all my past entries and I was like ahhh.. so nice =)
memories are precious bebeh...
besides, this blog reminds me of someone...

oh check this out..

Hi Annabelle,

Your extension is granted, do take care of yourself.

In the meantime, I would want the other team member, Mr. Azim, to drop me an email why he was passive during that period.

Best Regards,
Kee Chan Yeat
Siemens Pte Ltd

HAHAHA Mr.Azim or wuuuuud.
This is actually a forwarded email from my project partner, Annabelle.
Sorry Semens! I just hate doing the project you've so generously bestowed on me. That's why I've been passive!

*Siemens

2007-01-23T22:21:00.000+08:00

Hello. I must apologize for my past few emoshit entries. I've been struck down by my own inconceiving actions. The ground felt wet and disheartening. Innumerable emotions rained upon me. Forgotten emotions that I have not been experiencing for so long threatened to crush my happiness.

Last night, after talking to Emochocolate girl, watching these two videos, Shoes and Muffins (I'll post the videos later), and "squabbling" with Lyn (haha), I finally got my head right again. I realised, my life is so full of great things.. why agonize myself with the bad?

I already said I was sorry
and if you can't find anything in your heart to forgive me
then I guess those greater times meant nothing.
Even if you plan to forgive me,
I can't believe its taking you this long.

I'm not going to torture myself by waiting. I'm not going to suffer. Life's too great, too brilliant. Especially when I have friends who appreciates me for what I truly am. They know I would never hurt my friends even if I hate their very guts. I may hurt you, but I would never mean it.

So yeay I'm back on track. Finally completed my two days of work with climbasia. Payday's coming sooooooon! And Zim's feeling generous. hehe. Went back to school after that. Ashri, Yan pendek, Burn, Noni, Ayu, Yati were all there. Its almost like back then. Yan tinggi and Zali is missing. Could have stayed and climbed with them till late but I had to go off early because I was getting my new LEVIS SPECS!!! HAHAHA YES!

Zim's back, dancing with the stars..

Oh before I forget...

SHOES

MUFFINS

Laughter is indeed the best medicine. =)

2007-01-22T23:40:00.000+08:00

Awww Zim... Don't be sad...
Everything will work out just fine.. =)

yes... I'm back on track.

*many thanks =)))

2007-01-22T21:06:00.000+08:00

So many things are happening to me
Things that are supposed to make me happy
But my spirit's been dampened
My highs felt low
My lows felt even lower

I hid away, ashamed
Silence screams for forgiveness
Thank you consequence
The light now shines bright on my actions
so bright it hurts

Forgive me dear friend
For I had failed you,
so miserably

The concentration of nicotine in my system
has never been higher

2007-01-22T01:44:00.000+08:00

OMG this girl from gutemala (i think) added me on msn and we chatted!
her name is karen and i know she's a girl because she let me view her on webcam!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
But pity she didnt know much english so i decided to talk some espanol to her.
Check out our convo:

karen iveth says:
que pu
zim - says:
hello
zim - says:
speak english?
karen iveth says:
yea
zim - says:
hello =)
karen iveth says:
hello wat you name
zim - says:
azim.
zim - says:
you name?
karen iveth says:
karen
zim - says:
how old are you?
karen iveth says:
fain
zim - says:
fain?
karen iveth winks:
Play "Guitar Smash"
karen iveth winks:
Play "Kiss"
karen iveth says:
kissis four you baby
zim - says:
haha thank you

karen iveth wants to have a Video Call.
Answer (Alt+C) Decline (Alt+D)

You have answered the call.
Hang up (Alt+Q).

karen iveth says:
an my baby
zim - says:
hello =)
karen iveth says:
y tu no hablas ni un poquito de español
karen iveth says:
mandame una foto tuya pliss
karen iveth says:
andale nene
karen iveth winks:
Play "Deportista"
zim - says:
i dont know espanol
zim - says:
english
zim - says:
i am from singapore
karen iveth says:
la cagastecompadre
zim - says:
where you from?
zim - says:
what country?
karen iveth says:
ai am gutemala
zim - says:
oh..
karen iveth says:
kary
zim - says:
mi nombre es azim
zim - says:
soy de singapore
zim - says:
agradable encontrarle
karen iveth says:
bay

i think bay is bye coz she went offline.

It was like FUCKING amazing! it was daytime over there! HAHAHA! I still can stop laughing on how i tried speaking Spanish and me speaking in broken english "you name?"

omg life, you are seriously fucked up right now. You gave me shit and laughter at the same time. You are fucking screwing with me!

hahahahahahaha I still cant stop laughing.
oh and she was kinda hot =)

2007-01-21T23:27:00.000+08:00

Things aren't really good for me right now. When life wanted to take me on a rollercoaster ride, it made sure I'd experience the worst dips. Thankfully, there were fun parts too.

Went over to meet Lyn at Woodlands. Missed her sooo much. Gave her the biggest hug ever. Then Mimi joined us, slacked at Civic for awhile then went over to Lyn's house for dinner. Apparently Lyn's Mum missed seeing me too! HAHA. We had Pizza Hut for dinner till Ashri came over and we slacked at Fushan Garden. perfect... They made me forget about how fucked up I felt just now. Thanks Lyn, Mimi and Ashri! Oh and thank you to Lyn's massage thingy too. Orgasmic I tell you..

To my readers, I can be the nicest guy you'll ever know.. but I have my bad points too. No human is perfect. I've made a mistake. Doesn't everyone? Things happen, I believe, for a reason. Fate is there to make sure these things do. And from what I've learned, we will one day find out what that reason is for. I've realised how some things happened to me years ago has affected me directly in the present. But fate and time needs to get kicked in their balls for never making it easy. All we can do is hold on to the hope that everything would be just fine.

Don't get me wrong. Fate can be controlled. But do we know what we really want out of everything? How do we know what's best for us? We can't see the future. Life is full of surprises. You may think all's well now and that nothing could ever go wrong but there are so many factors affecting how you live your life. Shit happens. All the time.

All I'm saying is that we have to look at the bigger picture. Nothing is perfect. I'm not perfect. Neither are you.

bleah

2007-01-21T16:54:00.000+08:00

I just wish my parents would tell me my relatives are coming over sometimes. My aunties came over just now and I didn't know who they were! I was like wait a second, I'll go get my mum and I left them waiting at the door. hahaha its not my fault I have such a HUGE family. Anyway they were distant relatives so haha yah...

To a particular someone.. I'm sorry. I didn't mean the words that I've said. Oh well, just hope forgiveness is still in you like how compassion is still in me for you.

Klah. Going over to Woodlands to meet Lyn! I'm missing my bitch too much already up to the point that I'm forsaking my studies for the day. haha

2007-01-20T23:39:00.000+08:00

After a hard day's work of scrambling my brain cells through Aircraft Electrical Systems and Aircraft Instrumentation Systems, a rewarding treat is deserving of me.

Treated myself to some Macdonald's and boy, was it refreshing. Went back home and indulged in the sounds of Incubus. Incubus have always inspired me, be it intellectually, creatively or soulfully.

Here's something from Incubus' myspace..

"(Art)... rescues us from our self chosen triviality, to which we are so prone. It is like a deep organ note that makes my hair stir and a shiver run through me. I 'pull back' from life, like a camera taking a long shot with a wide angle lens. I quite simply become aware of more reality than before." -Colin Wilson (The Occult)

When I first read this quote, it truly effected me. I felt like someone had finally spoken an iota of truth about creativity and the process it allows to both the creator and the observer. It helped certainties that I have held dear for so long, resonate even deeper within me. And it inevitably made me muse about what we do as a band and group of friends who come together and through a symbiotic chaos of sorts make art and sound. The gratitude I and my friends feel is beyond measure. Gratitude for the experience itself and gratitude to the people who have lent us their attention, if even for three and half minutes.

'Dig' was toiled over the most I remember because it is the kind of song that is completely new to us. Structurally, integrally, and fundamentally different. And thank- fucking- God. Lyrically, it's a nod to camaraderie. And without pepperin' ya'lls interpretation of it too much, it speaks to the importance of forgiveness and compassion. Little alien concepts that some choose to toy with on occasion.

'Anna-Molly' delivers a similar push but has a far more sophisticated bent, in that it rocks, but conjures imagery of a girl that I can see in my minds eye but most likely doesn't exist. Therefore being a bit of an anomaly. I guess that is relatively sophisticated...right? Fuck. I actually hate trying to explain what these or any of our songs mean! And it's really not fair for me to condescend to do that in the first place. If you care to, let them be about whatever you want. Our single, 'Megalomaniac' from our last album (A Crow Left Of the Murder) was interpreted in ways that I never intended. It wasn't far from home base, but was nowhere near as case specific as it seemed. Which is fine with us. Good! Think of it what you will. And for doG's sake, start your own band!

What I am getting at (sort of) is that art has rescued us in many ways. Through circumstance, chance, good fortune, a teeny, weeny bit of talent, and an ardor for expressivity, Incubus has survived long enough to garnish a perspective onto itself. "Like a camera taking a long shot with a wide angle lens," we conjured 'Light Grenades'; a forty-seven and some odd seconds long bulbous mass of sound and intention captured on tape. 'Light Grenades' that explode with consciousness, light, art and mind. If you enjoy it, we thank you. If not? Then my dog is French and he already pooped under your pillow.

-Brandon

Haha Incubus is love isn't it?

This inspired me to create something.

It'd be real cool to have those tattoos on me. Darn.

PS:
To all graduating male students in Poly, good luck in serving your National Slavery(NS)!

2007-01-19T23:06:00.000+08:00

Watched Borat the movie today. He is one fearless man. Salute. It was hilarious in the beginning, sick somewhere in the middle and boring at the end. He is Borat. He likes sex. haha

I can't believe I'm still hyped out about MUSE. Those almost two hours wasn't enough to savour the fact that I'm in the presence of greatness. Those two hours wasn't enough to celebrate MUSE's prodigiousness with my friends and fellow MUSE fans. I was left wanting more. When MUSE left the stage, I stood there among the crowd, disbelieving that it was all over. They are performing in KL on 25 Feb. Will I succumb to this temptation? jeng jeng jeng...

I suddenly have a craving for sushi.

2007-01-18T23:56:00.000+08:00

Sabar Zim...

When the time comes you'll get what you are deserving of.
I hate to be the one to lay it on you.
I don't want to bear the burden of carrying the chains that will strap you down.
Consequence will feed upon your incongrousness.

You've been dancing on my magnanimity.
A volunteer to your music, unreciprocated.

What goes around comes around.
I'll see you soon
buried under your own consequences.
Gasping for air you will try to shout my name
but this time, my hands will be kept in my pockets.

You apologize but do you think I'm blind?
Your horns still show.
Break them off and swear you'll change
or I'll leave for good

Never bite the hand that feeds you.
Or you'll feel the leg that'll break your spine

Oh this fire in me feels divine.
Make sure you not cause me to explode
with your gasoline ways and matchstick promises

2007-01-18T22:09:00.000+08:00

I'm growing more fed up watching you procrastinate.

What are you waiting for?

I can't wait for exams to be over. To stay at home, going out only whenever I feel like it. Switch on some music while I read a book, a dictionary by my side for those amazing, unheard of words.

or should I get a job?

2007-01-17T23:13:00.000+08:00

Went to town with Noni...

Noni: All my friends are attached
Zim: PLEASE EH!

=/

Do what it takes to loosen up the ol' noggin and jog the key you need loosed.

2007-01-17T14:49:00.000+08:00

What can I say.. Muse fucking rock.

They sold 6500 tickets and I bet it still wasn't enough. MUSE MUSE MUSE

The queue was already long when I reached Fort Canning Park. Thankfully I have loads of friends already queuing up front. Thanks Nadia for letting me and my friends join you in your queue! Yeay LOTS of my friends turned up. I was never alone in the massive crowd. The crowd.. the screaming, jumping, jostling fans always kept me on my toes. The moment Muse came out... WAWAWEEWAA! omg I'm having goosebumps right now. And they played all the songs I wanted them to play! omg I'm having goosebumps again.

I started out with Fee and her friends Syaf and Fira. We then met up with Faizal and his girlfriend who then followed us in jumping the queue when we joined Nadia and her friends. During the performance itself, I lost Fee, found Ashri when suddenly he disappeared and I found myself with Azfar. Then it was Wan, Khairul. HAHA. In the end I ended up with Hakeem, his friend and Sonia. Hahahaha it was fun fun fuuuuun.

I was drenched in sweat(both mine and other's) Even my bag was wet. Sonia looked like she just went out of a shower! Haha damn cute. I then went to get drinks with Sonia and her friends and chilled for awhile. Sorry Ashri for I couldn't join you for supper. Going home with Sonia was nice. I rarely get to see her anyway. Woohoo!

The following morning I remembered I have a test and I didn't study a single bit of it. Nice. Muse was still in my head I couldn't concentrate on reading even the first word of my notes. Haha maybe it was because I was blasting Muse through my earphones. Even NOW I'm listening to Muse. Walauwei.

*goosebumps

I don't know till when this spell Muse has casted on me will last. I NEED TO CONCENTRATE ON MY EXAMS! muse muse muse

Oh Incubus will you be next?

2007-01-15T23:00:00.000+08:00

I believe my life is fucked up right now.
The main reason?
Diploma in Aerospace Electronics.
God, help me.
I'm speechless and I'm helpless.
Its hopeless and its suffocating me.

Time to prioritise and get my ass into the educational train which rides into the Stress tunnel.
I just hope I see light at the end of it.

erm.. ok I'll do that after Muse and the reunion with my primary school friends.
haha. Zim, always the procrastinator.

*note to Meng
Listen to what I've said. Listen to your true friends' advice.
If me, raising my voice up to the point of losing it did not knock the sense into you, I don't know what else can. Avoid doing that mistake. You didn't listen to me then; listen to me now.

*note to Noni
Thanks.
What you've wrote really made my day.
I'm always there for a friend if you ever need one.

*note to Muse
You guys better rock the hell out of me tomorrow.
But I'm sure you will =)

*note to God
help me?

I can't wait for the exams to be over.
I have only three papers thank goodness.
Still, the probability of me falling out is pretty high.
Around 8/10? haha stupid maths.

I can't wait to have all that free time.
I'm going to indulge myself with books books books.
Yes I LOVE to read.
I'm imagining me going to Sun Plaza's Coffee Bean, order myself a caramel frap, sitting on one of its rattan chairs, with a book in one hand and a ciggarette in another.
PERFECT chillout
Anyone wanna join me? hehe.
If you're a non-smoker, don't worry. I can resist smoking in good company =)

I still feel the need to type more. I have so much to blog about, so much to talk about. But this entry's already too long.

I now leave you with an interesting quote to ponder about.
I heard it on the way home on the train.
"I rather suck a dick than suck on a ciggarette" - nerdy boy to the other nerdy boy

2007-01-14T23:07:00.000+08:00

Damn tired right now..
I already feel like sleeping.
I reached home, went online and Nadia transfered all the remaining songs from the Muse Black holes and revelations album. Which made me even more tired haha. I was like chatting, checking my email, and receiving files all at once. HECTIC. but THANKS AGAIN NADIA!

Oh no! Apple's sick!
Get well soon k?
Mustn't be sick for MUSE!

I'm super excited about Muse. I even did some research =)

slowdance on the inside. says:
i went to youtube and typed muse (live)

slowdance on the inside. says:
so can tell which songs they play at concerts!

zim - says:
yeah!!!!

slowdance on the inside. says:
so we memorise those can already!

zim - says:
me too! i typed black holes and revelations tour

slowdance on the inside. says:
WHEEEEEEEEE!

slowdance on the inside. says:
ok so which is more common!?

slowdance on the inside. says:
hahahhahaa

zim - says:
supermassive black hole confirm...

slowdance on the inside. says:
LOL

slowdance on the inside. says:
i dont really like that

zim - says:
haha me too.. wait ah.. i gt write the songs..

slowdance on the inside. says:
LMAO!!!!!!

zim - says:
yeahhh i did research ok!

slowdance on the inside. says:
then never share!!!

zim - says:
there's soldier's poem, knights of cydonia, starlight!!!!, invincible, hoodoo, city of delusion

WOOHOO! ONE MORE DAY AND A FEW MORE HOURS TO GO!
I heard some people are going there at 10am. =/

Dear rain god, please take a vacation on Tuesday.

2007-01-14T13:27:00.000+08:00

I slept at 3 plus last night and woke up at 9am this morning just to go cycling with a friend. I didn't regret blasting the alarm this morning =)

It was wonderful. The air was cool and refreshing and it had the smell of the sea. We cycled to this canal near our house at Sembawang. I checked the map before and it was called the Sembawang River. Well, the government did a good job in making it look like a river. Hahaha. It had rocky banks and some parts were remade into some sort of mangrove thing full of plants and stuff. Seriously it was nice. I don't believe after living in Sembawang for so many years I didn't realise how beautiful this place was. Maybe because it was pretty-fied just recently. Wheee! It was damn peaceful there lah, away from busy roads and robotic people.

We cycled to this section of the river bank and sat on the rocks looking at the water, talked and smelled the fresh morning air. I swear there is something swimming in the water. I was half hoping that a crocodile's head will pop out of the water and charge out at us and I'll be the hero by stubbing my lighted ciggarette in one of its nostrils causing it to die from excessive passive ciggarette smoke. Then my face will appear in tomorrow's news with the headline of "BOY KILLS CROCODILE THANKS TO CIGGARETTE". My parents will then have second thoughts of me smoking. Heee. Well, that didnt happen and we soon started polluting the air with our ciggarette smoke. Hehe. The air was so cooling and the place so serenely peaceful I swear I could just lie down, sleep, and die peacefully with a smile on my face. HAHA!

Then something really exciting did happened. We suddenly heard this HUGE explosion. I thought I'd really die. It shocked the hell out of me. There was this early morning jogger with his earphones on and he heard the explosion too. And I could hear the music blasting from his earpiece; that was how loud the explosion was. I also bet the squabbling family from the HDB flat heard it because they went quiet.

On the other side of the river are factories which stretched all the way to the shipyard. So we took our bikes and cycled to where the explosion came from. We saw black smoke billowing from the shipyard area. At that point of time I didn't know whether to say "oh no... or OMG SUPER COOL!" so I stuck with "wah liao..."

After gawking at the smoke rising into the grey sky we turned around as it started to drizzle (yes we didn't do anything to report the explosion =/). Then I realised how far we've cycled. Damn tired lah my legs because we cycled super fast to the shipyard area. So fast, it will make your mother say "oh momma!" Then we had to cycle super fast again to avoid getting caught in the rain. I don't wanna be sick before MUSE.

Reached back home around 12 with jelly feet and an empty stomach. I hope something about the explosion will come out in the news tonight. Yes I'm going to watch the news. Listening to Incubus right now. Wanted to go back to sleep but I can't! Irritating ok. But yeay Incubus fucking rock my socks.

Going out again later. Argh... when am I going to start studying!
Don't get me wrong.. I LOVE school.. except for the studying part.
Lab tests and quizzes next week. URGH

2007-01-13T14:39:00.000+08:00

Mum, I want an Incubus tattoo

How I wished my religion didn't forbid tattoos
haiz...
I think tattoos are nice if they are used for artistic purposes
not like the ones matreps and ahbengs use to display their fierceness or sumthing
pffft fierceness my fucking ass

oh and I also like piercings
not the ones on the nipples, balls or through the liver piercings
I meant facial, especially the lip and ear piercing
just one would be enough. I don't want to look like the human silver porcupine

My mum screamed the last time I came home with a fake tattoo
hahaha. oh how I savoured that moment..

yeay I have the weekend fully booked
and next tuesday finally comes the Muse concert
So many of my friends going!
Sonia, Azfar, Wan, Min, Hakeem, Isza, Nadia, Sharul, so many more lah! I can't remember.
ahhh.. pity Ashri can't go..

gtg now!
someone's waiting for me =)

2007-01-12T23:57:00.000+08:00

I just loved my day.
=)

I love the rain.
I love the walks in it.
I love the wonderfully exciting things it does.

I love my friends
I go crazy whenever I'm with them

Am I cool or wuuud
This was taken at the SP Jam and Hop
they had this clubbing thing
so I joined in the fun

I love the mural Ashri and I drew
took us 3 days ok

I hate those negative intramurals, the revolting assaults on friendship and love, and the mistrusts that's happening around me.
But still, I'm glad there is still some LOVE around me
Thank you karma

2007-01-11T23:09:00.000+08:00

Thank God things got a bit better through the day. I did something really bad last night, almost inhumane, and I felt very very shitty when I woke up this morning. I had my cigarette breakfast and coffee and went to school.

School has never been so gloomy. Everyone of my friends were like uhhhh... and I basked in this solemn mood, just wishing time would pass by faster.

Thankfully Ashri came to the rockgym and we started drawing on the wall again.. You see, two days back we started to draw a mural on the unused wall and Hatta, our alumni said "It is the most beautiful thing in the rockgym." That inspired us to continue drawing and whoa its fucking nice now. The climbers actually came by the wall and looked at us when we're drawing. Some of them even expressed awe and amazement on their faces. Yeay I'm proud of me and Ashri's work. This mural helped distract me from my troubles and I was feeling better by the time we were done with it. I'll post a picture of it soon.

On the way home, it started pissing down like it never rained before. My new hooded jacket finally came into good use. I covered my head with the hood and walked in the rain. It was so cold and my jeans were wet from the puddles of water. I was wearing my slippers and duh it was slippery so I skied my way home. And while walking in the rain, I noticed and extra bounce to my steps. I was loving it.

I reached home and listened to the new Incubus album, Light Grenades. Fucking nice I tell you.
I found some lyrics fitting to what I'm facing right now.

We all have a weakness
Some of ours are easy to identify.
Look me in the eye
And ask for forgiveness,
We make a pact to never speak that word again.
Yes you are my friend.

We all have something that digs at us.
At least we dig each other.
So when weakness turns my ego up,
I know you count on the me from yesterday.

If I turn into another
Dig me up from under what is covering the better part of me.

Sing this song.
Remind me that we’ll always have each other,
When everything else is gone.

Yeayness.
Do I sound emo?
Ah fuck it. I'm happy now =)

2007-01-09T23:45:00.000+08:00

Went to town today with Ashri to meet up with Yati and Noni! HOHO! Its been awhile since I've seen them.. especially Yati. My very own minah friend has a spunky copper hairdo now! She looks so much better with long black hair lah. Blood minah pekat beb... jangan main-main... haha. But she's like the nicest minah ever. She actually wanted to treat me to a movie before we cancelled and decided to just hang out at starbucks. ahuh..(hahaha). Okay if you guys are wondering why is there a laugh after the ahuh, erm.. hahaha only Noni knows why. ahuh ahuh ahuh.

So it was great hanging out with them again. It wasn't the whole gang but it was still very nice.

and erm... WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?!
*pulls hair
Gaaaawd...
I honour my promises
That's why I'm still here

2007-01-08T22:39:00.000+08:00

Gua punya kepala pening ah itu asap SKL masuk dalam
Gua punya badan manyak penat ah itu members sudah lama tak jumpa pigi panjat sama-sama
Gua punya malam boring sebab itu epal takda lah
Sekarang gua punya apa itu lungs sudah mau isap ahhh

Apologies to my non-malay speaking friends
haha

2007-01-07T20:09:00.000+08:00

SAVE ENDANGERED ZIM

I haven't been being me for a tad too long. I seriously miss having endless conversations with someone and have regular intervals of silence in between but not get embarrassed about it. I can remember talking to Lyn on the phone for hours often ending up with scoldings from my parents and them thinking she's my girlfriend or something (haha). I miss being with someone and feeling so comfortable that words need not be said, just being in each other's presence is enough to set of fireworks. I miss everything about me that makes me the happy bugger that I am. I dunno what's been up with me. Maybe its because of the many things affecting me right now. Studies, friends, family, money. But hey, that's life; perfect from its own imperfections. I want to be able to feel blissful happiness again. Always talking, making jokes, burst out in spontaneous laughter; I want to be where I can care less about my problems and have the abililty to squeeze out every bit of happy juice I can get from any situation.

School's starting tomorrow. I despise the trips to school where I will often come to a lets-skip-some-classes-today decision. I hate going to class. Everything's so mundane. I miss my old classmates. My new classmates, they're trapped in the own chinese world. Yes I do not have Malay nor Indian or whatever other races there might be in existence in Singapore classmates. But race isn't a factor when making friends right? Like I said, they're in their own chinese world. I hardly hear English coming from their mouths. All I hear are ching-chong-ching-chong-HAHAHA. I'll be like what are they laughing about? Although I usually sit in the middle of the class, I feel like I'm at the shadowy back with gum under the table and spiderwebs hung abandoned. Its not a very condusive environment for effective learning. That's why I prefer hanging out at my rockgym. But the rockgym too lately have been feeling empty. All my closest friends have gone either from being kicked out of school or they withdrew from their course. Speaking of being kicked out, I'm terrified that I might be next. Someone help me get on track with my studies again please? You have to be really good because I'm as stubborn as nicotine addiction to my lungs. And my outside friends? haha they're always "outside" my reach. get it? hoho.

maybe what Wonderboy needs is a Wondergirl
and maybe a Superteacher

2007-01-07T01:54:00.000+08:00

The day was awesome...
I was told I have a sexy neck woohoo!
heh

And Lyn,
you do not joke about these things
gave me quite the scare ok?
haha
We talked over the phone and its nice to hear from her again
I miss you lah kanina

In other news,
school's starting and exams coming soon
I'm so not ready

2007-01-06T13:18:00.000+08:00

I woke up and my 6 year old brother punched me in the left eye
Nabei pain ok.

10 more days to MUSE!

2007-01-06T04:08:00.000+08:00

Its 4 am and emochocolate girl and I had been talking for hours. It feels so nice to be able to have a long conversation with her again. Really its great to have someone like her to talk to. I especially love her typos. I mean typos aren't that funny but when she's typing it, its hilarious.

Oh my favourite line..."she definitely seems to like him. cause she constantly misses you."

Thanks again. Now I have a clearer head wawaweewaa!

2007-01-06T00:03:00.000+08:00

I FUCKING love myself

thank you thank you

2007-01-04T23:04:00.001+08:00

I don't want to talk about it lah

Oh and Ngee Ann Poly lecturers actually take the effort to catch students smoking in campus.
Brilliant.

2007-01-03T22:04:00.000+08:00

I bought a new jacket HAHA
and the thing is I never even thought of buying it in the first place!

I went to Wisma's Topman with Ashri and he was like "You want anything? Take ah, my treat." FUCK. But knowing Ashri, treat means I pay for you first you pay me back later. But I was already eyeing a jacket that I've always wanted so I thought what the heck LETS SPEND SOME MONEY!

Thanks Ashri for the treat. I'll pay you back soon. (haha)

And guess what people? I'm thinking of quitting smoking
TADAAA! Amazing or wuuuud
Lets see if I can beat my record of two days without ciggarettes cigarettes ciggarrettes how the hell do you spell ciggarettes?
oooo.. a sign...

Its not going to be easy.. Smoking has been a big part of my life. It's always there when I'm down and it never fails to cheer me up. It's always there when I'm bored, when I'm happy, it has always been there for me whatever the situation. I love you but I feel its best I leave you for the sake of us. I hope you understand. Please don't take it too hard. If you're lucky, we might just get back together. =)

2007-01-02T23:13:00.000+08:00

You know the feeling of when you're smoking and after exhaling the smoke out you realise there's still some excess smoke left in your lungs and you try to blow it all out in one single breath when suddenly you feel that tickling sensation of an oncoming cough and when you want to cough you realise there is not much breath in you for you to cough out and you're not ready at all for that sort of situation you actually panicked and almost died of suffocation?

yeah...
that feeling

2007-01-01T20:59:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

Yes yes everyone! I'm back la sia!

Malacca and KL was super incredibly fun. Well, much more fun than I expect it would be. Its basically bonding with my cousins and the rest of my relatives over there. Back in Singapore, we hardly see each other so its kinda great to be able to spend so much time with them.

This is my hardcore smoker grandfather. Its amazing how he can smoke so much and still stay so healthy. I got his genes wheee!

This is my even-more-hardcore smoker grandmother. HAHA

Me and my cousins spend the nothing-to-do days lazying around, watching dvds and the TV too sometimes. Malaysian TV is so lame. Oh there's the laptop too. Thank God I managed to install a new game in it. Woots! THANK YOU TECHNOLOGY

You can see beside me lies my cousin's PSP :)

Other than that, we would go out exploring the village. It is especially great at night. Very nice.

That's my poser of a cousin

Thats me of course

And here are the kampong boys. They were too afraid to walk around in the dark so we accompanied them. Malaysian children are so cute. They were afraid the pontianak will get them. Isnt that cute? hahaha pontianak pffft.

Me and my family went to KL too! Putrajaya to be exact. And the place is EFFING NICE LA SIA! Its like all the government buildings are situated there. The buildings were MONUMENTAL. I was like in the Louvre of architechture. Everything there was beautiful. Amazing. Spectacular. Sorry forgot to bring the camera along.

You know what? I feel like I'm typing a report on how my vacation was. This feels so secondary school. Malacca and KL was nice la OK and I enjoyed myself and now I'm back home with shorter hair, more clothes, and a flooded email inbox. And awww you guys missed me! I feel loved :)

OK now that I'm in Singapore, I got hungry. So I went down to the coffeeshop a few blocks away to buy Nasi Bryani ayam. I was too tired to cook something up. Pretty standard stuff.. You walk to the stall, order something and the guy gives ur order to you and you pay up and leave. I ordered a Nasi Bryani ayam to go and when I got it, on the way home, I realised shit..this Nasi bryani is damn light. So when I got home, I checked and guess what? He forgot to give me my curry chicken! I was like kanina indian guy.

So I brisk walked back to the coffeshop and when I reached there, I stared at him. He caught my eye and he was like "OH boy.. you forgot your chicken." I forgot my chicken? I forgot my chicken??? I swear at that point of time I felt like pinning him to the ground and pulling off every strand of moustache hair he has. So I got my chicken and went back home quite relieved that I didn't make a scene over at the coffeeshop. I mean who would have the appetite to eat when they see moustache hair all over the floor?

Got loads to catch up with friends and urgh.. school. But still, its great to be back.

2006-12-23T00:05:00.000+08:00

Yesssah~
I have my laptop back woohoo! But this moment of exuberance will be short lived.
Curse the trip to Malacca.

I have come to a point where I have so many things to blog about.
So many things are in my head right now. So many questions.
I hope eh.. all these fucked up things in my head do not bother me when I'm over at Malacca.
I hope eh.. my grandparents have a HOT new neighbour or they built a new jacuzzi or some Malaysian Matreps to taunt.

Reasons why Malacca rocks:
-I get to see my grandparents and other relatives who live there whom I hardly know
-I leave all my troubles and problems back in Singapore
-I get to drive my Mum's NEW CAR
-SHOPPING although nothing much there but its so different from Singapore and the city's like an hour's drive knn
-FOOD omg kenny rogers watch out
-Malaysian tak jadi Matreps
-cheap cigarrettes
-Late nights watching dvds with cousins
-cows

Reasons why Malacca will suck
-Mosquitoes
-Boredom coz most of the time there's nothing to do there. seriously
-I'll miss my friends
-I'll miss my internet
-I'll miss my smsings
-I'll miss my calls
-BOREDOM seriously BOREDOM

Thank God my cousin's there. He's a Matrep in denial but he's really great to be with.
We'll have fun sneaking a cigarrette break every now and then. hahaha

OK now why am I telling all of you this when there are more pressing matters I wish to blog about?
see.. now I'm lazy

well, I'll get back to you guys when I come back. hopefully

2006-12-21T14:19:00.000+08:00

I'm at school right now and taking this opportunity to blog since my laptop at home was taken away from me to be sent for servicing. Come on lah.. it was working FINE except for the damaged keyboard and multiple viruses in it.

Life has been ultimately boring at night without my laptop. Usually if i have nothing to do at home, I'll just slack around my neighbourhood, smoking loads or maybe go out for a jog, then smoke loads. But due to the motherfucking rain, i was stuck at home. And there's nothing on TV( i regrettably have no cable), so i just lie on my bed, turn on my mp3 and make believe i'm performing in a gig. But then i'll get so high i wouldnt be able to sleep. So i'll go smoke somemore cigarrettes. Maybe that's why I still have not recovered from my sickness.

fuck

Well anyway I'm gonna be disappearing from Saturday onwards. Hope this disappearence can help me relax, keep me away from all my problems.

hokay, see you guys erm.. when i come back. And don't ask me when I'm coming back coz frankly, i myself don't know.

kbye

2006-12-17T18:36:00.000+08:00

I was watching Kopi O Teh Tarik on Suria just now and they had this singing competition for children. Only four children competed, 2 guys, 2 girls, and these four were awesomely GOOOOD! Not just good good, I mean GOOOOD! Especially the last one. He went on to win the competition. Boys rule girls drool HAHAHAHA ok kental. OK dats all. I just wanted to say how good they were. heh. OH! and at the end of the show this song came up and the cameras showed the audiences, whoaaa makcik semangat cik! gelek lagi! gelek lagi! woohoo! Its always a hilarious scene when you see old malay aunties acting like immatured school girl groupies. hahaha no offence aye?

Dammit I'm still sick. Massive headache and really irritating coughing and runny nose.
*sniff sniff* urgh...
And panadol isn't helping one bit.
I don't want to go to the doctor because firstly, I hate waiting for my turn to see the doctor. Second, I hate it when they ask me questions. Third, I hate the words they sometimes use. Lastly, I have to pay for a few minutes of gibberish talk. I know, I know its all for the best.. Maybe I'm just lazy.

I need a nurse
HAH!

2006-12-16T14:39:00.000+08:00

TSK

I woke up today with a fever and my body's aching from head to toe..
I wasn't feeling well yesterday but I insisted on climbing
and because the company yesterday was so good, I climbed a little too hard.
Now basically every moving part of my body's aching.
yeah I'm typing real slow right now..

The whole family's out and I'm stuck here alone at home.
You see if I'm not sick I'd be overjoyed coz the house will FINALLY have some peace. well.. I will finally have some peace. hah
I'll be blasting the music loud, dressed in only my boxers, skate along the living room corridors, play my guitar and sing my heart out, etc etc.

But no... I don't have the energy to do that.

haiz...

I think today I'll indulge myself in some creative artwork.

Apple where are thou?

2006-12-15T00:48:00.000+08:00

for the sake of gloating

woohoo!

Its way past 11 but I'm still online!

HA HA HA

Its gonna be 1am soon and tonight has brought up some surprises!

heh

I think I'm gonna sleep a happy man tonight =)

2006-12-14T18:15:00.000+08:00

hello
i'm in skool
noni is beside me choosing songs
the rest of the climbers are playing taiti
nobody is climbing
that's what makes us damn strong

i'm effing bored and feeling sooo un-gay
the only thing making me happy are my MUSE tickets.
haha
noni said "sial ah kau"
because she can't go to the MUSE concert and haha she's jealous
she once said after the concert she will be hearing how nice the concert was and faking a smile, wishing that the ground would open up and swallow her into the abyss.
hahaha like so emo

this is what i think of emo people

imagine noni's face in that pic.
UBERCOOL!

hey you.
your contradictory banterings are pissing me off
and its not helping me nor you one effing bit.
and believe me, you do not want to get on my bad side.
i sometimes wish i never bother
but i have to admit, there are times when you got me jumping off my seat screaming like an excited little girl.

oh musemusemuse.. make me gay(happy)

2006-12-13T21:53:00.000+08:00

I FINALLY BOUGHT THE MUSE TICKETS!!!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

eh try counting how many Os there are in the elongated wooo
I'm freaking high

2006-12-11T22:30:00.000+08:00

This post is dedicated to my Mum, the Evil Empress

Did you know, her highness imposed an online curfew for me. Like haha I have to shut off the computer at 11pm. The reasons behind it I shall not go into because it is just too bloody stupid. This latest unreasonable act by the Evil Dutchess prompted me to write a letter to her. It goes on sumthing like this...

Hahaha
As you can see, I find it pointless. Only her majesty is right.

wtf

But heck. You see my dear friends, I'm a scorpio and I just simply wouldn't stand being dictated senselessly like this. I have so many times evaded her grasp of terror. I bet I can do it again. But for now, no more late night chattings..

yeayness

2006-12-10T00:03:00.000+08:00

Okay i couldn't resist entering this post.

Lyn asked me to help her design a picture for her blog. So i took one of her pics and doodled with it using photoshop. Layers here, paint there, filter everywhere. Then while doodling with the stamp filter I uncovered this!

I call this "Lyn transmorgifying into a vampire"

Pretty cool huh?

HAHA sorry Lyn! I shall try again designing your pic.
-lots of bugger luf

This is called excitedness

2006-12-09T13:47:00.000+08:00

I cannot effing wait for MUSE!

MUSE MUSE MUSE MUSE MUSE

I was watching their live performances on Youtube and oooo goosebumps! I'm sweating under my armpits, my legs cannot stop moving, my hair's in a mess, my mind's in a daze.

Senorita Fee! Faster get your money so we can buy the tickets lah!

I'm gonna ask the help of my alien friends to use their spaceship and abduct Matthew Bellamy, Dominic Howard and Chris Wolstenholme. I will confine them in my room which secretly has an invisible forcefield where I can control who goes in and out. Then I can goyang hardcore everyday! I will go home early everyday and my mum will be very happy!

righttt

I want to cut my hair!

2006-12-07T20:57:00.000+08:00

Welcome to Lets goyang Hardcore's first official entry!
Hi my name is Zim and I'm the editor for this blog.
Here, I give you an insight to my world, a door to my mind.

Enjoy!

Well, last Sunday I attended a wedding. It was my cousin's mother's brother's wedding and it was GRAND. The food was grand, the decorations were grand, but it was the people who were especially grand. I come from a huge family and it amazes me how all of us could keep in touch and unite whenever there is an occasion which erm.. requires reuniting. So this showcase of incredible oneness inspired me to take loads of pictures. I roamed around the void deck, armed with my cousin's camera taking pictures of unsuspecting family members. I swear within 30 minutes I was in need of new batteries. I can't possibly show all the pictures i've taken but i can show you my favourite picture!

AREN'T THEY THE CUTEST THINGS?
Look at my Nyayi (second from the right) and her opened kelengkang. priceless..

After most of the wedding guests have gone home, I still continued to roam around with the camera. I was fortunate enough to have an opportunity to catch the little people in action. They call themselves the Roche Rangers, protectors of the Ferrero Roche flowers. Now lets seat back and let them pictures tell the story of the AMAZING ADVENTURES OF THE ROCHE RANGERS.

In the end, the monsters won. Like finally the bad guys win. After that, Monster Sham and Monster Zim had a feast of their Ferrero Roche flowers.

After all that great fun, all of us went home very happy people.

Well thats all for today's Lets goyang Hardcore post!
Look out for future post! Hurhur

~I should really start studying~

2006-12-07T02:00:00.000+08:00

first of all i would like to thank APPLE for helping me design my blog!

WOOTS!

Html is like wtf to me.

wazaaa~

2006-11-30T00:44:00.000+08:00

Hokay! I'm like finally talked into getting a blog.

Ashri is online and he's asking me for the song bandages by Hot hot heat. But daymn.. i already deleted the song from my playlists. Like wah chibai he told me to download the song again.

HAHA! this is fun!